Next To You

Thanks BP

I've been through a lot and the time I needed it the most He was there for me & I will forever and always be grateful to him. I trust him a lot and no matter what he will always be a dear friend. I will miss him. But its a small world so i know i'll see him again. So thanks friend for well being my friend. I will see you around :)

And fyi, your dog is still an asshole. But now i know what kind of pup i want


much love <3

Mother's Day

I'm deeply grateful to the Man Above for the blessings he bestowed upon me. I am happy, I am loved, I am where He wants me.

I'm in a new city with just my daughter and my brother. A job that I have done before and knew I could do and handle.

I have much to be grateful for and its been wonderful.

I love the life I have been given <3

Jennifer Lopez - Dance Again ft. Pitbull

I need to start dancing around my house again...especially when i'm cleaning the house.

I think that's the next thing i'm going to start. it alwaays makes me happy and smile. <3

Its about that time

I've got a game plan right now and that's what I have been lacking in the past month, which i think is what made it a little harder for me to move on....nothing to focus on.

On the drive back from Virginia, Mooseh and I were talking about life and well everything really.

I need to continue studying for staff sergeant AND i mean, seriously buckle down on that studying. At least three, maybe four or five hours a day of studying. That is something really important for me, and something that needs to be done.

I need to contact the tribe and get my schooling paperwork rolling.

I need to start classes as soon as I can. The degree I am focusing on first is the Community College of the Air Force, applied science. I need 22 credits which is 7.3 classes. Once I have that accomplished I have to send that transcript to the college and within a couple months from that have that degree certification in hand.

However, I won't be taking a break from classes, because while doing those credits I can use them for my next degree which will be for Business Administration. Once my CCAF is complete, I should have all the generals done, so when I focus on Business Admin I can focus on the classes that actually pertain to my degree. By then, all I will have to do is 8 classes and I will have my degree Associates in Business Administration.

Like I said, school is my main professional goal.

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Katarine Elizabeth, my one and only. A huge and important person in my life. She is my life.

I want to take a parenting class in the next week, so I have to contact my base services to see what I can do.

I have a custody battle in two months and I want to put my best foot forward.

I have done everything to keep all her needs met and even spoil her with her wants.

Its going to be a hard and long process but one I won't have a problem with accomplishing.

Kat deserves me as a mother and the main person taking care of her. I can provide that to her with no problems

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On a personal note...

It has been over a month since I've been single. The first week was the hardest for me. I had just moved to a new section at work, a new area, and of course with Kat in tow.

I was a wreck emotionally. I missed my ex boyfriend, I missed my best friend. So yeah, it was hard.

In the weeks to follow, I've been able to just continue looking towards the future and looking at the people who have been there for me, and the people who just started out.

I met a couple guys but no dates yet. I've been very interested in this one guy. I pray that I can take things slow and see where things go.

This guy is different and I haven't been in this type of grounds (brother's friend) So its definitely making go down a different route.

The thing is I kinda like him and could see things go in a very good route.

I don't know I just don't want to get ahead of myself and I don't want to set myself up for failure (holding back).

I just need to breathe and let things be

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SO MUCH IS GOING ON IN THE LIFE OF ME

I know that people love me and I know that people care.

All I need to remember is to show and tell people that I love them and appreciate them.

Everything else will fall into place.


HAPPY GO LUCKY!!!!

Holding my breath

I'm scared I will run into the ex.

Even though secretly I want to hug him, kiss him, just be held by him.

I miss us.

But I know its over and things will never be the same.

I accept it and things just have to continue.

Life moves on with you or without you being ready.

I miss you, I care about you and I pray that you're happy. Good bye Ben.

TjG

Well my love,
To think of it being a year since you passed isn't something that is comforting in any way.
And on top of that last time you came to visit you couldn't even talk to me even though that is all I wanted to do. Makes me a little sadder.
We weren't great at being a couple, but I like to think that our friendship was pretty strong.
I miss texting you back and forth all night just talking. Talking about being scared or unhappy but always supporting each other and believing in each other.
I miss the sleepovers where we would just fall asleep holding hands. I miss those mornings waking up and us both snuggled up together. I loved them more than I let on.
The thing I miss the most is you and baby girls friendship. God she loved him so very much. Sometimes it would even bring a tear to my eye.
I wish you were here to celebrate her birthday with us.
The ring you gave me. Few years back, yeah I wear it every day. It's a constant reminder of you but one I welcome.

I miss you. I love you.

Come visit!

A loving friend.